Again, it was late. I had a headache all day yesterday and again today. (One of those that shoots through my right eye and arches around the right hemisphere of my brain and then down the right side of my neck. You know, those kind.) I had errands to run though, tis the season. I feel like my brow was furrowed and no one wants to look at the grumpy lady.
Also, we do this weird thing. My husband calls it a “tailored childhood” with extreme sarcasm in his voice. It’s not his favorite. We take our three youngest children to three different churches on Wednesday night. One is our church and then two others. I don’t know why we do it, I don’t know that we shouldn’t.
Nonetheless, I had a ton of driving to do and he was out of town, so no help. After I dropped off the 3rd child my headache and I went into Target to grab a few groceries. I thought perhaps some caffeine would help. Luckily my two favorite places, Starbucks and Target are besties. After much deliberation I ordered my drink and began visiting with the two Starbucks baristas. That is when I made the mistake, it was the headache I suppose. I began telling them about the 30 days of kindness project. I asked if there as anything I could do for them…mistake number 2. I walked away thinking how majorly I had failed when one of the girls followed after me and gave me a certificate for a free drink. She told me to give it to someone in the store and that would be my good deed. Darn, that’s not good enough because it was her doing it, not me…score for spreading kindness. I had given it away with in 5 minutes but it didn’t feel right. It felt like I gave something that wasn’t mine to give. So, I continued on with my shopping and decided at the last minute that I would get a sweet treat for the Starbucks girls.
I got them each an individually packaged decorated Christmas cookie. They were super cute. I gave them to the girls on my way out. But, it wasn’t the same. They knew I was doing it because I had planned to do it. It wasn’t spontaneous to them and didn’t speak as strongly. Bummer. I’ll do better today.